A new me!

The dream from the other night put me in a very morose and contemplative mood for a full 24 hours. Nothing that the sun and ocean can't shake off though. However this moroseness (?) got me pondering it's origin. I think that I've finally figured out what's wrong with me. It goes like this. I, like everyone else (I hope), sometimes have random memories spring up unexpectedly triggered by whatever. Every single memory that comes unexpectedly to my mind from soph year of high school to freshmen year of college is horrible. To be sure I have good memory's as well but these never seem to unexpectedly surface. In all fairness all of these memories are negative because of my own actions. I realized (or perhaps clarified is more accurate) that my social stagnation has been caused by these memories and my own overwhelming guilt. however, after 4 years I realize that I am a different person. I would like to think a better person? The question now is, how do i bury my demons and move on?

Update, just talking with someone about this briefly has helped, I'm cured! Yay!

(This post makes it sound easy, but man, this shit has been eating at me for years now)

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